My Faith Is Like...
Shifting Sand by Caedmon's Call
Sometimes I believe all the lies So I can do the things I should despise And every day I am swayed By whatever is on my mind
I hear it all depends on my faith So I'm feeling precarious The only problem I have with these mysteries I s they're so mysterious
And like a consumer I've been thinking If I could just get a bit more More than my 15 minutes of faith, Then I'd be secure
(Chorus) My faith is like shifting sand Changed by every wave My faith is like shifting sand So I stand on grace
I've begged you for some proof For my Thomas eyes to see A slithering staff, a leprous hand And lions resting lazily
A glimpse of your back-side glory On this soaked altar going ablaze But you know I've seen so much I explained it away
Waters rose as my doubts reigned My sand-castle faith, it slipped away Found myself standing on your grace It'd been there all the time
Stand on grace
I just can't think of anything to write. I feel so tired, emotionally... School's up again and I'm having a lot of doubts as this sem make its way. I'm still traumatized by what happened last sem and I'm having a hard time accepting the truth that I might be delayed for graduation. But in all of these things, I always ask God what He's trying to say. I believe that everything happens for a purpose and it's for me to find out what it is.
But there's one thing I realized just lately about my relationship with my friends. I realized that I've been putting barriers between me and my friends after that dreadful day, when I was deprived of the assurance of friendship. And now, I'm having a hard time breaking those barriers. I've been wounded a lot last sem and with this kind of faith, I feel like I might fall anytime. Things would be different and I'm so much afraid of what might come out of my decision to not trust anyone, even the one closest to you because they're the one who would really hurt you.Labels: Caedmon's call, emotions, God's will, trauma
- Gian
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