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A Bum's Nirvana

5:10 AM, Friday, November 28, 2008 | Link to this post | 0 comments

"Mr. Alvarez, It's confirmed! No one can understand what you've written!" These were the very words that my 'thesis' adviser said when I gave him the draft of my data analysis. To think that the one person who 'read' it aside from him didn't even read it in the first place. As always, buong ME department nanaman ang nakarinig. Everytime naman na magcoconsult ako sa kanya, disaster. Pero in fairness, hindi naman niya talaga ako pinahiya ngayon. I just need to fix some bugs in my report.

Ayun! Actually, pinag-eexperimentuhan kita. Oo ikaw na nagbabasa nito. Try ko lang kung mas may effect ang ganung opening sentence. Para maiba lang. Wala lang. Trip lang! Pero since na-open mo na 'to, tapusin mo na ang pagbabasa. Malay mo ma-mention kita. Haha!!

Well, these past few days I've been living in Nirvana, a bum's Nirvana. To tell you honestly, I really don't know the real meaning of Nirvana. As much as I can remember from my Asian history, it's a place of extreme happiness and all that jazz. Did I just say extreme happiness? Well, hindi naman masyado. Nirvana lang kasi ang unang word na pumasok sa mind ko nung nag-iisip ako kung ano ba ang state ko ngayon sa buhay. Haha! Nirvana in a sense na I can spend time with my long lost friends once again without having to worry too much about my classes the next day. Kasi, wala nanaman akong class. Haha!!! Isa akong hamak na bum sa UP na pagala-gala at nag-iisip kung paano tatapusin ang undergrad research paper ko na ako lang mag-isa ang tumatapos (Hello sa nang-iwan sa akin sa project na 'to. I'm still alive and kicking. =D ).

Sa plurk din daw ay may Nirvana. Ewan kung ano ibig sabihin nun. Hindi naman ako nagpu-plurk. I don't want to dare myself to open a plurk account. Madali pa man din akong ma-adik. Kaya ngayon nangangayayat ako dahil adik ako!! Haha!! Nirvana dahil after quite some time nakapaglaro ulit ako ng frisbee. Na-miss ko yung pagod sa paglalaro. Nirvana din dahil na-experience kong gumising ng alas-dose ng tanghali. =D

I don't know if I'm giving enough justice to the real meaning of Nirvana. Pero for a lack of a better word, yun na lang ang gagamitin ko. =P

Well actually, hindi naman talaga ako bum ngayon. Semi-bum lang. I'm still fully supported by my parents financially (and morally). =) But there are times din na I want to live on my own na. I want to have a job but I can't have it on a full-time basis. Like what I said to most of my friends, I won't work full-time unless I've graduated from college already.

Just last monday, a friend told me that she appreciates me more now than before because of my level of maturity (those were not the exact words pero parang ganun na rin yun). Weh!? Ows?? As in hello? Ako? Mature? Haha!! Eh mas nagiging isip-bata nga ako this past few days. Haha!!! Waaahhhhh!!!! I wanna be a kid again. Yung tipong nag-eenjoy pag pinapasan siya ng dad niya sa likod niya (which by the way I've never experienced). So ayun, thanks dear friend if you really think that I'm mature enough to handle certain things. Haha! Pero sa tingin ko, hindi pa rin talaga. I'm still in the process of finding a reason for everything. =)

The hell with my job interviews! Bigla-bigla na lang may mga magtetext na company scheduling me for an exam and interview. I remembered last monday na may interview ako sa isang company na 'to tapos hindi ko alam kung anong position ang aapply-an ko. In the end, nalaman ko na lang na shift supervisor ang kailangan nila. Yung tipong mag-aayos ng schedule ng mga tao sa isang gas station. Eh schedule ko nga hindi ko maayos eh schedule pa kaya ng iba!? What the heck!! Kaya the next day, hindi na ako umattend dun sa naka-schedule ko na interview. Most of them would say kasi na they need licensed Mechanical Engineers. Eh since most of them would still consider me as a student, hindi pa nila ma-assure ang position ko. So I've decided not to attend interviews muna. Besides, nakakapagod din.

I'm off to Caliraya 6 hours from now. Wohoo!!! After almost a year, I'm gonna go out-of-town again. Pero weird, parang ang gaan ng bag ko. Usually kasi mabigat talaga ang bag na dinadala ko sa mga ganitong klaseng trips pero ngayon, kayang-kaya siya kahit ng dalawang daliri ko lamang. Joke! Shienna just gave me a call a while ago giving me reminders for the trip later. Gosh! They're asking us to be on a sports attire and be ready to swim. What the heck!!! I really don't know how to swim!!! I've experienced the swimming pool of Caliraya Rec and it's super deep! 8 or 9 feet deep. (That's deep for a non-swimmer like me.) Haha!! Bahala na si Batman bukas. Yung mga girls na lang ang palalanguyin ko. By the way, ako lang ang guy na kasama from UP. Haha! I'm excited to meet new friends. Pero sabi nga ni Jopi, dapat lahat ng matututunan ko dun ay transferrable. Ewan kung ano ibig sabihin niya dun. Basta ang alam ko, na-pressure ako sa mga nag-support sa amin ni Wonder at ni Ate Rox. Haha! Kailangan makinig sa mga sessions. Haha!!

Gusto ko nang mag-reformat ng laptop dahil medyo mabagal na siya at naiinis na rin ako sa mga programs na ayaw ma-uninstall.

I miss performing on stage. I just saw the preview of DUP's Atang last tuesday at Guerrero theatre. Most of my Fili friends were part of the cast. It was a good play. I can't compare it to Fili since they have different objectives. While Fili's goal was to entertain at the same time spark an awareness to the youth, Atang's goal was to inculcate the appreciation of art to every true Filipino. Haha!! I'm not fond of making reviews so that's all I can give you. =) I miss my Fili friends and our bonding/night out sessions at tomato kick. =)

Gusto ko ng matapos ang ME 155 ko! Ayoko nang bumalik sa ME dept. Nakakasawa na. Haha! God, we can do this! Aja!! =)

Since I feel like I'm in Nirvana, I also feel like thanking those people (habang may time pa) na nakasama ko in this journey called life (Labo tsong!):

To my CCC family, thanks for the good times! Ngayon ko lang talaga na-eenjoy ang pagiging CCC. =)

To my Fili family, nakaka-miss kayo! Labas tayo minsan. Let's pray for our re-run! Smiling face!!!

To my PSME-UPSU family, salamat dahil kahit hindi na ako nakakasama sa inyo nandyan pa rin kayo para ipadama na kasama niyo ako. Go PSME!!!

To my Eng'g Soc family, God bless sa Awitan!! Miss you all!

To my Theatre 12 family, ano na ang nagyari sa naudlot na cast party? Miss you all!! Ang saya di'ba? =)

To my Stillwaters family, nakaka-miss mag-S'mores! Pero mas nakaka-miss kayo! Thank God you're here! I miss Kuya Philip and Tita Rachel. =)

To my Mama and Papa, I just realized that you love me so much. I love you too!

To my Saving Grace, thank you for the people I've mentioned above. You are the very reason why I live. =D

- Gian

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